December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time I was yours
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me your heart and I left it there to die

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call!

And I think about those summers, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

I miss your soft skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that August night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
I go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd back to december, turn around and make it alright

I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind...